So last night, my cool and awesome friend texted me about her weekend of raving, going to two raves, two days in a row. Ngl, that sounds really intense, AND insanely fun at the same time. In my mind, I was thinking how cool and popular a person would be to have such social weekends, and then I thought to myself, "Maybe I should try that.. just to have a taste of this fun."
The more I thought about doing something like this, the more I was questioning my motives; I'm a geek through and through and I absolutely love it! I'm already 23 and I've never done the party scene before, and there were times before that I was put into the whole pressure of, "You're only young once; this is going to be the best times of your life. Don't waste it!" So, I always thought about just being crazy for weekends and breaking my curfew(it's a sad thing, I know..), but then I kept thinking to myself - WHY I would actually want to go out and party. Pretty much, my motives weren't anything like, "Partying must be fun! I should really do this!" as it should be; If anything, it was more like, "I just want to do this because of the social pressure to have fun socially with no limits and to be considered 'cool'." I tried my hand at Oktoberfest one year under that same intent - I learned my lesson, none of this partying is really worth it and it's not nearly as fun as I thought.
In all honesty, I already feel more than content and I'm already HAVING fun just geeking out on Saturday nights. I'm guessing it's just the way I'm hard wired; I'm happiest around a table and a good boardgame(okay, and still maybe a beer or two to be fair :P). Ngl, I still feel a bit jealous of the whole glamorous party life, but I doubt my future would be waiting for me if I were to start a party life now in the midst of my part-time job and getting my BS.
All in all, I've concurred with three absolutes: my geekiness, Gaga, and the fact that I know Risk and Warmachine will always wait for me <3.
The more I thought about doing something like this, the more I was questioning my motives; I'm a geek through and through and I absolutely love it! I'm already 23 and I've never done the party scene before, and there were times before that I was put into the whole pressure of, "You're only young once; this is going to be the best times of your life. Don't waste it!" So, I always thought about just being crazy for weekends and breaking my curfew(it's a sad thing, I know..), but then I kept thinking to myself - WHY I would actually want to go out and party. Pretty much, my motives weren't anything like, "Partying must be fun! I should really do this!" as it should be; If anything, it was more like, "I just want to do this because of the social pressure to have fun socially with no limits and to be considered 'cool'." I tried my hand at Oktoberfest one year under that same intent - I learned my lesson, none of this partying is really worth it and it's not nearly as fun as I thought.
In all honesty, I already feel more than content and I'm already HAVING fun just geeking out on Saturday nights. I'm guessing it's just the way I'm hard wired; I'm happiest around a table and a good boardgame(okay, and still maybe a beer or two to be fair :P). Ngl, I still feel a bit jealous of the whole glamorous party life, but I doubt my future would be waiting for me if I were to start a party life now in the midst of my part-time job and getting my BS.
All in all, I've concurred with three absolutes: my geekiness, Gaga, and the fact that I know Risk and Warmachine will always wait for me <3.
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